Life’s Little Updates!

Picture: anime girl typing.Welcome to my one hundredth post, since the start of this little humble blog of random rambles in June 2014! I began this blog as a ranting ground surrounding my eye disorder, a day after I was given the crushing diagnosis of Keratoconus. It was to serve as a means of sorting out my complicated thoughts and cheering myself up.

What I didn’t expect was that I’d actually get readers, comments, or likes, which was a great surprise. Thanks to everyone who are interested in my little scribbles and have followed my blog thus far, I do appreciate it much! So, to celebtate this milestone, I’ll do what I always do and share yet another post of rambles. ^o^v

Sometimes, I get a new follower who “like” or comment on an old post of mine, and I stop to read what I had written in the past. Most of the time, I find myself cringing at some minor viewpoint within that old post, as it’s highly invalid to my current views.

For example, I had once wrote a post praising Facebook and deeming Twitter as boring (My Crush On AmazingPhil) in 2014. Although my crush for Phil is still alive (I’ve worn out my Dan and Phil t-shirt!), my disdain for Twitter has disappeared ages ago.

I have long abandoned my Facebook account and often update my Twitter (@NerdyGrlDani) with videos and science podcasts, comedy, or music. I enjoy tweet updates from my favorite YouTubers, scientists (Including Neil deGrasse Tyson and Bill Nye), and organizations like NASA and SpaceX.

In fact, I can’t remember why I thought Facebook was “all that” in the first place and I can’t imagine not having my Twitter account.

That’s just a tiny change, but I am no stranger to changing my entire viewpoint completely on bigger issues, especially after finding new data or having new experiences on the subject. My views are always subjective and may change wildly over the years.

There are some fundamentals that will always stay the same, because I am a very stubborn sort, but for the most part any idea I may express one year may change or become outdated the next.

For example, I started off my rant about my eye troubles (Much Ado About Eyes) in 2014, praising CXL, However, after researching more data, I’m certain that it’s NOT a good option at all and Intacs are better. Of course, I won’t be able to make a final conclusion until after my surgery, which I’m hoping will be sometime before the end of this year. ^_-

Picture: anime academic.In one post (Religious Debates: Can We Not?), I had claimed to be a proud Pagan, but lately I am more Agnostic than anything else. Not to be confused with Atheism, please! My viewpoint is there may be a “god” or designer of the universe, but there may not be just as well. Science nor religion have conclusive evidence to support the existence or non-existence of god, either way. Until there is proof and hard evidence, I choose to stay neutral.

Although I’ve enjoyed my Pagan religion for many years (and I still have a deep respect for it), I haven’t really been following the traditions or holidays for a few years now. So, I’ve decided to jump off the wagon and I’m content with being Agnostic.

I’m sure there are many old posts that I could nag the minor details about, but I’m trying to make a point, which is this… I’ve demonstrated to myself (via these scribbles) that it’s okay and HEALTHY for people to grow and change in their overall opinions and beliefs.

I’ve done it and nothing bad happened to me, no strike of lightning, only the opposite. I feel more secure in my self-esteem, more calm in my life, and contented. The world didn’t end, when I had tried out new ideas or changed my mind about something after gaining new and accurate data.

Picture: anime clones.I’m making this point because, unfortunately, society is stuck in a loop of “Walk this way, talk this way, think this way!” type of living. I am a bit disturbed when I find people unwilling to update their views, even if the new data is overwhelmingly clear that the old view was completely wrong or mistaken on a particular point. For example, Pluto is NOT a planet… get over it and move on. We were mistaken, scientists were mistaken, yet it’s not the end of life on this planet as we know it.

I always choose to update my views, when credible and extensive evidence is presented to me OR I stumble across such evidence on my own.  I’m never too proud to admit that I was wrong about something and I prefer to be educated on facts, not feels.

Then again, that’s just me. but I haven’t seen this argument spoken enough, so I’ve decided to mention it in my blog. This post will be read in the future by me, for further analyses, I’m sure. Hello, future Dani… hmm, is that what people are wearing now? Okay! ^o^v

I love that my blog is a constant time capsule of my thoughts, feeling, attitudes, ideas, rants, rambles, and so on of a particular moment within my past. I don’t mind that I cringe at a few details or scoff at some over-the-top silliness that I had written.

That’s why I don’t take down posts or edit them (unless there’s a glaring grammatical error and it’s driving me crazy to leave it, so I may edit that bit). No, every one of my posts are a priceless record of me figuring out life for myself, making mistakes in some conclusions, and learning from them. I wish to keep this record of my growth forever, a reminder that I’m always moving forward.

Thanks for reading my rambles, as always! And here’s a hug from me, in the form of a song: We Won’t Be Alone. Have a good day, everyone. ^_^v



Music And The Savage Beast

Picture: anime music listening.A long while ago, I wandered onto a forum and every forum seem to have a thread for others to share music videos or clips. I love these kinds of threads, because I get to listen to cool music and share my own favorites.

However, on this particular forum, I made a comment to one of the members that I liked (her?) choices of music, mainly because it was very 80’s and upbeat songs. She commented that she liked my posts as well, because my music choices were calming.

I didn’t realize that I was sharing a lot of calming or slow tempo songs until she pointed it out. It made me smile and I felt very pleased with the realization, “Huh… I seem to have a taste for mostly calming music.” ^_^

Don’t get me wrong, I do love my dubstep, metal rock, and “glam-rock” (80’s screamo music), all the same. However, most of the time I am listening to soft celtic tunes, orchestra/opera, or indie rock albums like “Ewert And The Two Dragons”. I’m totally in love with the album “Good Man Down” and the song of that title, by the way. Here’s a link to buy the album, which I highly recommend, as every song on it is awesome: here

I think my love for calming music began in the middle of my depression, several years ago. I realized that listening to emo rock was NOT HELPING me in those dark times, the depressing lyrics were adding fuel to the flames of my situation. This is when I stumbled onto the band U2, with their inspiring and upbeat songs, and this started my trend in listening to less depressing music.

Picture: anime male violinist .Of course, even U2 and other bands can and do have songs of gloom sometimes, but the difference is that gloom is not the band’s main objective. It’s okay to feel sad sometimes, but the trouble begins when one chooses to live within that sadness and paint their entire reality in dark colors.

Or at least, this was an issue for me, when I listened for hours to depressing music while in a depressive state to begin with. So, I switched my musical experiences to calming tunes.

The kids are calling slow tempo songs, “chill” these days. I like that term, as it accurately describe the songs that are easy to listen to when one is just laying about or resting a day away. Chill music has a real affect on me, as it calms my spirit or add to my relaxed state, in a natural and non-medicated way.

I enjoy pondering life or writing while listening to a playlist of soft tempo music. It does calm the savage beast within me, the anxiety or aggravation that I may feel sometimes in life. And when I feel upset, I can make it better with a round of: Storywriter (Eureka7). Or songs like, Boom Boom Ba, I Love The Rain, Brand New Day (Ryan Star), and many others.

Music is my greatest joy in life, next to writing, it is art that doesn’t need my eyes. No matter how dim or blurry the world around me becomes, I’ll always have music. Music has been my true friend throughout my entire life, a constant companion, no matter if I’m happy, sad, angry, confused, or lost. Music is always there for me.

Picture: anime music station.A lot of times, I can relate to the notes or the lyrics of a song, and I feel connected. It’s almost spiritual. I often use music as a form or social interaction with others, meaning that I enjoy sharing it, especially with new people that I’ve met. In my view, sharing music like sharing a hug.

If a song can make someone smile or feel a bit proactive about their life, then I am happy to pass it on. And here’s another chill song for you, dear reader: Paradise – Together.

Thanks for reading and sharing a listen with me! ^_^v